a new year, a new resolution to break.

In effort to shut up my ever-so-prevalent subconscious, I have decided to set a realistic resolution for the new year.  I'm pretty sure if I don't follow through with my goal this year, my subconscious will tell me it's going out for ice cream and never come back. This year, in effort to make my life nothing like it currently is, I have decided to set 12 different goals to accomplish each month. I've tried the whole "1 thing" resolution before..."Go on a date", "don't have something emerging from your teeth at least once a week", "don't laugh to fill silent voids after someone tells you something personal and serious"...it never works. It never works because I don't have a deadline! Like, am I supposed to begin with my goal starting Jan 1st and continue all the way through death? That is a lot of pressure! What if I fail? Then what? My simple new year's resolution becomes a snarling beast that eats at my self worth reminding me that I can never follow through with anything. That is too much to face at the beginning of every year. No wonder my year always starts off with panic.  NOT THIS YEAR, BEAST! I will create an opera-singing mob not unlike the one in Beauty and the Beast to crush you!!! I will accomplish my goal this year because i have a realistic time frame and 12 chances to prove to myself that i am worthy of setting and following through with goals! 2012 is my year. Not yours. I plan to keep it that way.